everything belongs
writing in this block of blank space feels really strange.
i, my friends, am going through one serious good ol' fashioned transition. not much is coherent or cohesive, but there are newly found (and re-found) mantras that i have begun to apply to my life, how i live, breathe, talk, write, think, act, don't act, sit, spend time, assess, paint and make decisions.
i am incredibly glad i smashed the heck out of my arm. i am thankful. i try to remember this each day and find myself thanking God for it every time i do.
some of the brilliant statements others have granted me that give me strength include:
you are growing up.
live for those who love you now and for those who will love you in the future.
always remember the relief you felt.
what do you want? what do you want to do? who do you want to be?
just be normal.
we need more jennifer here!
listen. stay inside your body. don't let yourself run away. remain aware.
the universe was listening.
you are exactly where you are supposed to be right now.
when did you let yourself stop feeling?
one of the biggest recognitions has been that i had forgotten about enormously valuable, abstract terms that are so complex and true that they, upon meditation thought and application, can provide tremendous strength. including:
honesty. determination. faith. dignity. grace. courage. hope.
LOVE.
i had forgotten about all of these. havent thought about them, havent applied them, since i left college station.
i'm coming back to whatever 'me' is again. i left texas, i did what i had to do. things are coming back again. i feel like 'myself' more often now! not lost. not faking it. not trying to be something that i am not. like what i want to be and what i believe in, slowly, for minutes at a time, sometimes for whole afternoons. a wierd thing to describe, certainly. but it's coming back.
i am incredibly proud of myself for living as i have, for traveling, leaving texas, challenging myself as much as i possibly could, losing control completely, and then slowly relearning how to REALLY believe in myself again.
how cool is all this. and oh how challenging.
i, my friends, am going through one serious good ol' fashioned transition. not much is coherent or cohesive, but there are newly found (and re-found) mantras that i have begun to apply to my life, how i live, breathe, talk, write, think, act, don't act, sit, spend time, assess, paint and make decisions.
i am incredibly glad i smashed the heck out of my arm. i am thankful. i try to remember this each day and find myself thanking God for it every time i do.
some of the brilliant statements others have granted me that give me strength include:
you are growing up.
live for those who love you now and for those who will love you in the future.
always remember the relief you felt.
what do you want? what do you want to do? who do you want to be?
just be normal.
we need more jennifer here!
listen. stay inside your body. don't let yourself run away. remain aware.
the universe was listening.
you are exactly where you are supposed to be right now.
when did you let yourself stop feeling?
one of the biggest recognitions has been that i had forgotten about enormously valuable, abstract terms that are so complex and true that they, upon meditation thought and application, can provide tremendous strength. including:
honesty. determination. faith. dignity. grace. courage. hope.
LOVE.
i had forgotten about all of these. havent thought about them, havent applied them, since i left college station.
i'm coming back to whatever 'me' is again. i left texas, i did what i had to do. things are coming back again. i feel like 'myself' more often now! not lost. not faking it. not trying to be something that i am not. like what i want to be and what i believe in, slowly, for minutes at a time, sometimes for whole afternoons. a wierd thing to describe, certainly. but it's coming back.
i am incredibly proud of myself for living as i have, for traveling, leaving texas, challenging myself as much as i possibly could, losing control completely, and then slowly relearning how to REALLY believe in myself again.
how cool is all this. and oh how challenging.
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