"are you kidding me?! jen would never let you sleep in her room!"
hello loves,
this week has been full of sudden realizations:
1) i was so bored at work yesterday, i felt that going into the bathroom and just standing there would work more brain cells than what i was doing at my desk (which was nothing). i have been touted as a "self-starter" at work, but i have self-started all that i can and now am bored to oblivion. while standing next to the mirror checking out what really was on the bathroom shelves, i realized that instant that something had to be done. i have to look for something job and soon. how freaking ridiculous.
2) while talking to a boy i was kindofsortof dating - while helping to support him in his (super super trivial) problems, i realized after 3 hours of his ranting that hanging out with him was a total waste of my time. it wasn't going anywhere. i wasn't helping him and he is 183% selfish. i realized it completely suddenly though. one second i was putting tons of effort into listening, offering advice, telling stupid jokes. and then the next: bam. i just smiled, walked to the bar to get another beer and left within 5 minutes - recognizing that everything was over and i was totally fine with it.
3) so long, naivete: i witnessed another way money dominates politics. in grad school, i watched this first-hand in regards to foreign policy. while in san francisco, both at the non-profit last year and now at my current job, i'm recognizing it at the local level.
our firm was hired to the landscape design for a historical building in the city (actually super close to my old flat) - it's a beautiful space: an old armory for the military in the early 1900s, all brick, hasn't been touched since 1950. it was a really exciting project: we had been talking to the local community (in my neighborhood), non-profits, figuring out what design could actually help folks out there. well, we found out the day before christmas that it had been sold to a new developer. even a bigger "well," we found out monday that it was sold to a pornographic video production studio *stares at the computer screen* - i think it says a lot about the direction this town is going in, and its frustrating as all hell. the details about how i found all this out is pretty hilarious though: be sure to ask about it if we ever talk voice-to-voice style in the near future.
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i'm trying to avoid using lists in the near future, but i feel like that is impossible being i am doing a shoddy job at maintaining this thing. in future posts i will try to focus on my feelings or why my fingerless gloves are the greatest purchase i have made in the previous 8 months or why nine huge windows in one's room are so much better than 3 medium sized ones. and of course rudy is constantly my saving grace (he brought flowers to my work john cusack style on wednesday. seriously now).
i love you a lot. keep it real, etc etc
jen
this week has been full of sudden realizations:
1) i was so bored at work yesterday, i felt that going into the bathroom and just standing there would work more brain cells than what i was doing at my desk (which was nothing). i have been touted as a "self-starter" at work, but i have self-started all that i can and now am bored to oblivion. while standing next to the mirror checking out what really was on the bathroom shelves, i realized that instant that something had to be done. i have to look for something job and soon. how freaking ridiculous.
2) while talking to a boy i was kindofsortof dating - while helping to support him in his (super super trivial) problems, i realized after 3 hours of his ranting that hanging out with him was a total waste of my time. it wasn't going anywhere. i wasn't helping him and he is 183% selfish. i realized it completely suddenly though. one second i was putting tons of effort into listening, offering advice, telling stupid jokes. and then the next: bam. i just smiled, walked to the bar to get another beer and left within 5 minutes - recognizing that everything was over and i was totally fine with it.
3) so long, naivete: i witnessed another way money dominates politics. in grad school, i watched this first-hand in regards to foreign policy. while in san francisco, both at the non-profit last year and now at my current job, i'm recognizing it at the local level.
our firm was hired to the landscape design for a historical building in the city (actually super close to my old flat) - it's a beautiful space: an old armory for the military in the early 1900s, all brick, hasn't been touched since 1950. it was a really exciting project: we had been talking to the local community (in my neighborhood), non-profits, figuring out what design could actually help folks out there. well, we found out the day before christmas that it had been sold to a new developer. even a bigger "well," we found out monday that it was sold to a pornographic video production studio *stares at the computer screen* - i think it says a lot about the direction this town is going in, and its frustrating as all hell. the details about how i found all this out is pretty hilarious though: be sure to ask about it if we ever talk voice-to-voice style in the near future.
* * *
i'm trying to avoid using lists in the near future, but i feel like that is impossible being i am doing a shoddy job at maintaining this thing. in future posts i will try to focus on my feelings or why my fingerless gloves are the greatest purchase i have made in the previous 8 months or why nine huge windows in one's room are so much better than 3 medium sized ones. and of course rudy is constantly my saving grace (he brought flowers to my work john cusack style on wednesday. seriously now).
i love you a lot. keep it real, etc etc
jen
posted by jasembera at
2:34 PM
4 Comments:
doh! you bought fingerless gloves?? damn i was crafting a fingerless pair pat benatar style w/fishnet stitches. they are 40% done. maybe i will send them anyway for fancy occasions. ha. i had made you a scarf w/pockets but its like so long it woould fit jason tenner. anyway that one is here for anyone over 6 ft. ha. ok bye.
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Anonymous, at 8:18 AM
I used to spend hours in the bathroom at my former job in Paraguay. I used to take 30 minute power naps...
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Anonymous, at 4:10 PM
when i worked in htown, i hid in the bathroom for at least one hour a day. maybe bathroom dreaming is a sign for a change in life.
right now the excitement in my life is the Great San Antonio Ice Storm and bacterial transformation. Think I'm gonna clone a 'cool' plasmid and try transforming myself.
fingerless gloves are hot. what color are they?
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Attica, at 3:05 PM
update time pleeeze.
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