wow. whoa. geez. bam.
hello my friends -
isn't it baffling when you recognize that someone is an absolute waste of your time? ha - perhaps not other people's time, but yours? oh pardon me if i'm a bit strong / bitter, but i am enduring the multi-faceted result of someone closing an enormous steel door on a friendship with me - someone who decided to do it a long time ago and without letting me in on his secret.
i feel so fortunate that i place such enormous value on friendship. granted it results in a lot of pain sometimes, but i feel like it has made me a much stronger person. each of you have taught me a ton about what that really means, and i am still learning from each of you. i want to thank you for that with every piece of me. (especially diane. remember that message i left a few weeks ago? no no not that one. that other one. replay it or something).
i can only hope that i am as good of a friend to you kids as you have been to me. as i've wandered and moved and dealt with new and difficult situations (as all of you have as well), i place an increasingly enormous value on the friendships i have made and worked towards, on trust, straight-forward communication, the recognition of faults and strengths and the goofy stuff in between and the beauty of whole-hearted, unadulterated laughter. respect. honesty. integrity. (i suddenly feel like lauryn hill, and will probably be listening to her non-stop for the next week, which is fiiiine).
a few of you have no idea what i'm talking about (mario and martha, for example) - but that's because i've really been trying to deal with some stuff on my own. but please know that i think of you often and appreciate the hell out of you and can't wait to see you again.
now i can start being jen again. maybe i'll have a faltering few steps for a while, but nonetheless - no more time is going to be wasted.
i love you a lot. i'm sorry if i've been out of touch. i'm gettin' back with it, and a lot of it has to do with the fact that i know that you kids - though most are far away - are on my side and in full support of whatever direction life and Whoever Made Us lead me, lead you, lead the wooorrrrrrld.
thank you thank you thank you thank you.
i hope all is well out there -
jen
isn't it baffling when you recognize that someone is an absolute waste of your time? ha - perhaps not other people's time, but yours? oh pardon me if i'm a bit strong / bitter, but i am enduring the multi-faceted result of someone closing an enormous steel door on a friendship with me - someone who decided to do it a long time ago and without letting me in on his secret.
i feel so fortunate that i place such enormous value on friendship. granted it results in a lot of pain sometimes, but i feel like it has made me a much stronger person. each of you have taught me a ton about what that really means, and i am still learning from each of you. i want to thank you for that with every piece of me. (especially diane. remember that message i left a few weeks ago? no no not that one. that other one. replay it or something).
i can only hope that i am as good of a friend to you kids as you have been to me. as i've wandered and moved and dealt with new and difficult situations (as all of you have as well), i place an increasingly enormous value on the friendships i have made and worked towards, on trust, straight-forward communication, the recognition of faults and strengths and the goofy stuff in between and the beauty of whole-hearted, unadulterated laughter. respect. honesty. integrity. (i suddenly feel like lauryn hill, and will probably be listening to her non-stop for the next week, which is fiiiine).
a few of you have no idea what i'm talking about (mario and martha, for example) - but that's because i've really been trying to deal with some stuff on my own. but please know that i think of you often and appreciate the hell out of you and can't wait to see you again.
now i can start being jen again. maybe i'll have a faltering few steps for a while, but nonetheless - no more time is going to be wasted.
i love you a lot. i'm sorry if i've been out of touch. i'm gettin' back with it, and a lot of it has to do with the fact that i know that you kids - though most are far away - are on my side and in full support of whatever direction life and Whoever Made Us lead me, lead you, lead the wooorrrrrrld.
thank you thank you thank you thank you.
i hope all is well out there -
jen
posted by jasembera at
11:24 AM
5 Comments:
a good and honest friend is hard to find. you have to muck through alot of duds. i feel so fortunate that you're in my life, woman. let me know if you need anything at all. i.e. mixed CD, hit man, etc.
love you.
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Diane, at 11:40 AM
I hope you are fine now. For me life usually doesn't have clearcut boundaries between one phase and another. What I mean is that maybe whatever bad feeling whoever caused you will linger a bit longer, and, I think, it's best not to repress it, just deal with it (and "mourn your dead relative" like they would say in Paraguay).
Anyway, I am sending you a mental hug right now.
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Anonymous, at 4:26 PM
Sometimes you just have to trust your instincts.
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Anonymous, at 3:25 AM
I will make you a mixed CD on behalf of chivalrousgeorge. It will consist of nothing but willie nelson and waylon jennings, two of chivalrousgeorge's favorite artists. And I think you will (should) love it too. And if you need a hit man, my services are available, provided you pay for my air fare. And food. And shelter.
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Anonymous, at 10:54 PM
the mail service doesn't suck like 2 years ago. I am so happy you received the letter, now I know I can write you regularly again.
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