finding my lights curve
hello allzzzz,
in the previous month, 8 people have brought the following personality quirk/ characteristic to my attention (usually without my prompting):
i am bold. i am blunt. pretty much always.
the majority of kids were positive about it - my friends seem to adore it... but i feel like i may be getting a little tooooo bold (i'm turning into the honest drunk girl. this is bad. very very bad).
i mean the bluntness isn't going to go away entirely. i know this... but it needs to be held in check a bit more.
so anyway, i'm trying to strike the balance of being forthright, but holding back when necessary. maybe travelling did this to me, perhaps its because i hold quite a bit in at work - who knows - but apparently my fantastic-beyond-belief-brother-paul is exactly the same way, and also had to deal with this recognition a lot last week too. so i am not alone.
i also curse a lot. like, a lot. my mom used to get mad at me about it, but i blew her off. then the italians noted it, commenting on how funny it was - but i just thought it was because they were "foreign." then two housemates noted it - and for the love its true. i have a gaggle of sailors living inside my mouth, i think.
so anyway i guess i've been "working on myself" a lot lately, whatever that means. bleh. laaaaaame.
* * *
i leave for north carolina tomorrow. geez this could be an excrutiating week:
flight: i leave at MIDNIGHT, change planes in cincinatti at 4 AM (or does that mean 2) and arrive at 10 AM (7am) - and THEN am expected to attend conferences that i care nothing about the entire day, until saturday
authority: all of my bajillion bosses both on site in sf and in the nationall offices in d.c and l.a are going to be there AT ONCE. i cant wait to frolick with them together and be really nice all the time and super positive and happy!! uuuggggggh
people: celina - thank God she's going too - two of the kids will be there as well - and i will also be staying with samantha, an AMAZING woman i met last year who is from/lives in the bronx - i love these people - but i'm just a bit worried that i'm not going to have a lot of solo time -
super big fat positive note: i get to see laura - who was the first person i ever travelled with abroad (mexico). she just got her m.a. at chapel hill - man, i havent seen that woman in years and am really excited... and ive never been to nc and hear its pretty pretty - so that's hot/"rocks the house."
* * *
there sure was a lotta complaining in this one. see? you should be glad you don't live anywhere near me right now, because man oh man would our friendship be put on hold for a bit - ha -
i love you guys a lot. i wish i could see you so i wouldnt be so crappy-face-mean all the time
jen
in the previous month, 8 people have brought the following personality quirk/ characteristic to my attention (usually without my prompting):
i am bold. i am blunt. pretty much always.
the majority of kids were positive about it - my friends seem to adore it... but i feel like i may be getting a little tooooo bold (i'm turning into the honest drunk girl. this is bad. very very bad).
i mean the bluntness isn't going to go away entirely. i know this... but it needs to be held in check a bit more.
so anyway, i'm trying to strike the balance of being forthright, but holding back when necessary. maybe travelling did this to me, perhaps its because i hold quite a bit in at work - who knows - but apparently my fantastic-beyond-belief-brother-paul is exactly the same way, and also had to deal with this recognition a lot last week too. so i am not alone.
i also curse a lot. like, a lot. my mom used to get mad at me about it, but i blew her off. then the italians noted it, commenting on how funny it was - but i just thought it was because they were "foreign." then two housemates noted it - and for the love its true. i have a gaggle of sailors living inside my mouth, i think.
so anyway i guess i've been "working on myself" a lot lately, whatever that means. bleh. laaaaaame.
* * *
i leave for north carolina tomorrow. geez this could be an excrutiating week:
flight: i leave at MIDNIGHT, change planes in cincinatti at 4 AM (or does that mean 2) and arrive at 10 AM (7am) - and THEN am expected to attend conferences that i care nothing about the entire day, until saturday
authority: all of my bajillion bosses both on site in sf and in the nationall offices in d.c and l.a are going to be there AT ONCE. i cant wait to frolick with them together and be really nice all the time and super positive and happy!! uuuggggggh
people: celina - thank God she's going too - two of the kids will be there as well - and i will also be staying with samantha, an AMAZING woman i met last year who is from/lives in the bronx - i love these people - but i'm just a bit worried that i'm not going to have a lot of solo time -
super big fat positive note: i get to see laura - who was the first person i ever travelled with abroad (mexico). she just got her m.a. at chapel hill - man, i havent seen that woman in years and am really excited... and ive never been to nc and hear its pretty pretty - so that's hot/"rocks the house."
* * *
there sure was a lotta complaining in this one. see? you should be glad you don't live anywhere near me right now, because man oh man would our friendship be put on hold for a bit - ha -
i love you guys a lot. i wish i could see you so i wouldnt be so crappy-face-mean all the time
jen
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