travelling extravaganza

hellooooo to everyone.

first of all, i would like to extend a firm handshake and warm congratulations!! to all of you who have recently completed an education-related period of your life. i'm glad to hear that many of you no longer have to worry about certain boring courses, papers with high page number requirements or "calls" or "callings" or "hellholes" or whathaveyou. really. i feel like a part of me is a bit more relaxed for you as well - even if the freedom you feel is a short-lived one. (and i miss you).

kind of a mind-boggling week for me. i've been applying for jobs (solely) via monster.com - which isn't very helpful (or maybe i don't know my TRUE self as well as i think) because according to that RIDICULOUS online service, the only jobs i'm capable of include:

1) joining the sf police department (um, hello i hate them - and not for the normal reasons - ask me about the race related arrests in sf as to other cities in ca sometime. it will be a real neat discussion - or maybe an all too emotional soliloquy de hhhhhennifer)
2) working for a bank (oh i'm sorry. who was i fighting against for the previous year with my credit union work??)
3) CAR. SALESMAN.

don't even get me STARTED on numero three. FOR THE LOVE. what have i done with my life.

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now for an insanely positive direction: future travels galore (both definite and tentative)

first week of june: going to north carolina - awesome. have never been, and hear it's beeeautiful. and soooooo excited bc my friend (lahhh-ooooodah: laura) who i traveled in mexico with (my first outta the country trip) just graduated with her ma in city planning from unc. and i get to seeeeee her.

second week of june: san diego, my hearts. i get to see wiiiill! (this was a direct reference to will). there will be sun, heat, my peer court colleagues (tony and roel) who i adore so i am happy. and the conference could be "hella" interesting. so i'm stoked.

ok this part is sick.

this morning, i met with the guy who started couchsurfing (casey) and we chatted on my (super sweet) roof for a few hours - and he asked me to help him with "the CouchSurfing Collective". basically, he wants to pay me to go to montreal from mid-june to mid-aug to help him with workshops-of-sorts on grant-writing, traveling alone as a woman on couchsurfing, etc. the flight, room, food, etc would be covered 100%. there would be a lot of brainstorming, and far too much communal living - but it sounds fan-tas-tic.

and "his vision" includes coming back to sf for a month or two, and then... then...pending money and "my skills," theres a slight chance i'd be able to go to new zealand for the Eastern Hemisphere CS Collective. but this is an ever so slight chance... though montreal? man, i think it's going to happen.

and i really heart couchsurfing and what its about (as lame as it sounds), so this is doubly exciting. doubly? double-E? electrical engineering?

*stares at computer screen*

i have a lot to think about: loan paybacks, rent while im gone, health insurance, peer court (sweet job)... but i spent the day putting the pieces together, and i think that montreal is actually possible. but we'll see. this is all very tentative. i should grow up, "get real" etc. but man this opportunity is seriously too good to be true.

but now i shall focus on the definites. nc and sd. can't believe it. i get to travel again! ohmygosh i think i'm addicting to traveling to lands ive never seen before. theres something wrong with me.

im sorry im rambling, i just feel so incredibly lucky. i dont understand how this stuff happens to me. im finding myself thanking Something so much, so often. ...but i can't keep floating around like this. can i? why has this little path of mine been oh so very all over the place. what am i doing.

i love you. im sorry for rambling. i hope all is well with you...