so. "making it" in this town CAN be rough.
hello friends,
what an adventurous week this has been. i have applied for 18 jobs, been officially hired at 3, fired (sort of?!!!?) at one, postponed at another and start working at the third this sunday morning.
in sum, i strangely feel like i just moved to san francisco two weeks ago. seriously. in many ways i'm starting over again. after the previous two months of serious self-inquiry, i slowly began to feel differently about many aspects of my life, have slowly weened myself away from hanging out from certain people, from going to certain places. i have signed up for courses at city college (for free yes thank you) which has allowed me to have a bit more structure. and then, last friday, i lost a cafe job after two days of "training." that night i seriously considered moving back to texas for the first time since i moved here.
(and that reminds me: amanda and shelley: you are wonderful and i am so glad you visited. thank you for putting up with emotional-wreck-jen for a few hours. i feel really fortunate that the two of you came when you did, though you may think otherwise - ahah -)
i've been recognizing "adult things" that i've been sort-of-kind-of avoiding as long as i can remember. things like retirement, making rent in a stable sort of way, what city is the best for me, what i can realistically afford, careers, being passionate about a job but recognizing that nothing is utopian. seriously really seriously thinking about all of these things.
now for CLASSES: (i'm so ready to get going with them): i went to my intro to acting class on wednesday, getting up super early tomorrow for welding (YES WELDING AND ITS GOING TO BE AWESOME) and busting back into spanish. so. three classes. one job (though perhaps a second in a few months). my life is about to get much more structure-fied and i am so ready.
and specifically: mom, thank you. and diane, thank you. amanda and shelley, thank you.
i'll talk with you kids soon. i've been on job prowl (as you can read), and grow weary from riding my bike in heels across the city all day everyday. but no excuses. i will be around more now, thank you please.
love you guys!
what an adventurous week this has been. i have applied for 18 jobs, been officially hired at 3, fired (sort of?!!!?) at one, postponed at another and start working at the third this sunday morning.
in sum, i strangely feel like i just moved to san francisco two weeks ago. seriously. in many ways i'm starting over again. after the previous two months of serious self-inquiry, i slowly began to feel differently about many aspects of my life, have slowly weened myself away from hanging out from certain people, from going to certain places. i have signed up for courses at city college (for free yes thank you) which has allowed me to have a bit more structure. and then, last friday, i lost a cafe job after two days of "training." that night i seriously considered moving back to texas for the first time since i moved here.
(and that reminds me: amanda and shelley: you are wonderful and i am so glad you visited. thank you for putting up with emotional-wreck-jen for a few hours. i feel really fortunate that the two of you came when you did, though you may think otherwise - ahah -)
i've been recognizing "adult things" that i've been sort-of-kind-of avoiding as long as i can remember. things like retirement, making rent in a stable sort of way, what city is the best for me, what i can realistically afford, careers, being passionate about a job but recognizing that nothing is utopian. seriously really seriously thinking about all of these things.
now for CLASSES: (i'm so ready to get going with them): i went to my intro to acting class on wednesday, getting up super early tomorrow for welding (YES WELDING AND ITS GOING TO BE AWESOME) and busting back into spanish. so. three classes. one job (though perhaps a second in a few months). my life is about to get much more structure-fied and i am so ready.
and specifically: mom, thank you. and diane, thank you. amanda and shelley, thank you.
i'll talk with you kids soon. i've been on job prowl (as you can read), and grow weary from riding my bike in heels across the city all day everyday. but no excuses. i will be around more now, thank you please.
love you guys!
posted by jasembera at
1:03 AM
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hello my heart. congrats on the job and the new classes and the breaths of fresh californian air.
just watched a special on the Haight-Ashbury district in the 60's. it's where much of my favorite music was born. is it bad that i want to try LSD now?
just kidding.
JUST KIDDING.
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Diane, at 3:16 PM
hello dear,
i(we) had so much fun this past week. i wished we wouldve stayed longer! (like forever!!) im gonna call you soon to rehash and i hope your roommates dont hate me! sorry i was bossy. haha.
xoxo. take care luvrrr and look after rudy for me.
amanda.
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