what does a girl have to do to get a little AC up in this piece!!

um hello it's freaking HOT here. just when i told san diego kids, "oh it neeeeever gets above, like, 70" it gets super freaking hot. the previous two days have been composed of the denizens of san francisco sweating like crazy, taking ANOTHER shower, or bouncing from place to place trying to find someplace, ANY PLACE, with freaking air-conditioning.

and for pete's sake i just checked weather.com and it's only 78. SEVENTY. EIGHT. this city's going to fall apart if it hits 85. i swear weather.com must be wrong.

why am i a baby all of the sudden. i endured 100+ degrees foreva when in texas. now i cry at 80. but i swear it would be different if my bedroom didnt feel like a sauna upon entry or i could get into an airconditioned car and drive with the windows rolled up.

and where did all of my shorts go!!! WHY DONT I HAVE ANY SHORTS

things have been loooeveeely since i got back from san diego. hung out with rudy (praise be!!), have sat around and done nothing and have been captivated by the kill bill films.

ok anyway. now for rambling... it's a bit outta synch with usual blogarama, but meh.

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a month from yesterday will be my last day at the credit union job. i really havent been worried about what happpens after, but it seems that since i got back from san diego, every single one of my family members (minus beth and paul - i heart you kids for understanding me, at least trying really hard to and i love you) has been on me about what my EXACT PLAN is starting july 22, 2006. well, everyone: i just don't know and i'm ok with it. perhaps i seem like a disorganized, goal-less slacker who doesnt give herself enough credit or a hippy or crazy or unrealistic or something... but the thing is, i'm really happy in san francisco so i'm going to stay here for a bit longer... things will work out, i've dealt with far worse things, and.... might i emphasize again.... I AM HAPPY. this is big news from the girl who cried her eyes out throughout her time in college station adn one year following. i have a bit of money saved (amazingly) due to the peer court job, have health insurance covered, so things are a-ok.

i miss so many of you so very much, it's sick. things are getting harder for me in that respect. i wish you were here or i was there all the time. i can feel myself wanting to get back there soon - but not just yet. i feel i have more to do here, or something.

perhaps that was a wierd, misplaced paragraph but... family does read this and i want them to understand a bit of that - and if not, that's ok too.

i guess i'm just trusting in time or something.

ugh i know that was all really wierd, but i'm just growing weary of all the judgements and questions and subsequent frustration. this will probably only worsen it, but that's fine.

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OH! i havent wrote this yet, but will's apartment is an exact replica of his place in college station. seriously dudes. it was triiiiiippy. now and then, i felt like i was in the metroplex again and it wierded me out. really it just made me wish bri-bri or reid-o would walk through the door.

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i love you guys a lot. i miss you guys a lot. and to DIANE PATREEEESSIA ARNAOUT AND ALL DOCTORS: iamveryproudofyou and goooood luuuuck!!