todo es por algo

if/when you visit me (again), you will hear me say two things over and over:

1) this city is my boyfriend (and it is - even though i feel it has a more feminine persona).
2) the 360 views from my roof never looks the same - the sky is constantly changing its colors due to the weather, time of day, mood of the city. and i love it. every time i go up there, it's new and awe-inspiring (yes it inspires the awe). and this quells my adhd - ha

luciano y cris left this morning, and im throwing myself in the same tactic i take on everytime a visitor leaves. its the same sort of mindset id throw myself into when i would leave/enter a new city during my trip last summer. "ok, that was fantastic - and i will miss the places, people and moments when i would learn new things, but this is another step, another part of my journey (literally and figuratively). let's do this." sounds ridiculous, but it kept me sane through all the crap i had to endure/beauty i experienced.

its great to have travelers come through here bc i feel like i am a part of their experiences in new and neat places. is that selfish? that and the visitors that come here and stay w me are always lovely and im able to have constant hang out time.

dont want to talk about work. my outside projects are accruing at an exponential rate. i dont like laptops. i want to garden. i miss my family desperately. im looking forward to april, but less so to the return to sf (yet another dive into the aforementioned mindset). i love this freaking city. i have listened to "jacksonville" by sufjan stevens approximately 189x in the previous month. it's pretty much my theme song, less in lyrics, more in the happy melody.

and i have decided to purchase 1-3 willie nelson album(s).

hope all is well out there. a few of you are (still) enduring some serious school mess - and i am thinking of you.

love love love

jen