a 48 year-old trapped in a 19 year-old's body

man, being bold and strong and etc is tiring. geez.

for the first part of my life, all of my friends were boys. i couldn't befriend a girl to save my life. then, not sure what happened, but everything reversed. i am now surrounded by so many strong women who i learn from, laugh my ass off and who are inspirations to my lame ass. and super good friends that are boys? slim, present but very slim. the change was gradual, but it's definitely made the complete 180. why can't boys and girls just hang out? thank you, mr. evolution and ms. endocrinology.

i have assets now. oh do i have assets, and they're in the form of a next-to-spanking-new couch i found on craigslist. and it fits in my room! up to now, i had nothing to sit on so i would sit on my mattress on the floor and inevitably pass out/lounge for far too long.

so yesterday morning, stacey and i lugged that thing 3 blocks to my apartment. she was still *sleepy* from the night before, and i was super tired so we both laughed our butts off as we carried that thing around, bumping into sandwich signs and lightposts along the way. but we were successful, and praise be i have a couch in my room and it's comfy. COMFY. look for yourself:
following the muscle-fatiguing couch-haul, i walked from the bay bridge to the golden gate bridge, and then back to the apartment. it was no ese-sanmarcos adventure, but my legs are still aching like crazy and bays are pretty. and i would like to thank my parents for the flashy new sneakers that allowed to make my trek a bit easier.
things are tense around work - not in the relationships between the folks here, but because my 'bosses' are FINALLY beginning to recognize how dire of a situation we're in. i've told them that i'm waiting one month for dramatic change. if not, i have to go elsewhere. more from me later.

dear longest post in america: why. why.

diane may visit me in a few weeks and the thought of this happening is like a pleasant pleasant dream. oh god i hope it works out for the love i hope it works out. but i shall not get too excited because it is not 100% and i do not want to get all mopey and shee-it.

take care out there. miss yous. and looking forward to you postish updates.