let's do this

hello everyone

today is my dad's birthday and i love him. talked with him on the phone today, and it was hard on me when the call ended. i miss him a lot, and wish i was already there - but will be soon so 'it is cool, yo.'

we have another freaking dog. hhahha... it's old name was 'georgia coo,' but my family has decided to upgrade its title to 'pookah' *stares into computer screen*

here is a photo of my family from long, long ago. pappy didn't even tan back then: ;

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i don't know how to handle work anymore. i feel like i've been in a constant state of uncertain non-profit death for the past 5 months and i'm running out of steam. when i get back on januarywhateveritis, i could be pulled from the organization - which at this point - i wouldn't fight too hard. if that doesn't happen, i will be officially running solo over there, being the part-time kid i work with is going to be outta here. quitting has entered my head - but then i waver along a spectrum between 'i don't quit things' to 'let's be smart jen and think of another direction to go'

i have saved no money over the past 4+ months. i barely make rent. yes, this place is pretty - quite pretty. but geez man i've been working way too hard for this sum. and my san francisco 'bosses' haven't helped me at all as far as what in the hell i should be doing at work.

i wonder if moving out here was a poor decision, but i'm alive and smile a lot still and am learning. lord knows i am learning.

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it's almost the end of the semester for most of you, if not already. i am glad to hear you can rest for a bit. for realz.

miss you guys - take care of yourselves out there -