a bit much for a tiny girl of 24
i don't know if i've spoken of this explicitly on this thing, but the non-profit i work is for is in really bad shape. it's flat broke, and noone here knows what's going with the budget, who is currently funding us (if anyone) and what in the hell happened to all financial documents during the previous three years. we received a small grant from a foundation a week ago, but now they are reconsidering the amount that they promised.
when i made the decision to come here, i was told by the guy who apparently took all of the above info with him that the non-profit was in a really good position, and i would be making a livable sum of money each month. since i got off of the plane two months ago, i have learned more each day of how dire the situation really is (exemplified by the fact that my salary is now half of what i anticipated - hardly livable - not exaggerating).
so i'm the 'development coordinator' which basically means i'm in charge of everything having to do with funding, raising money, expenses, etc. my god. i have been thrown into a dying non-profit and am expected (though they claim otherwise) to save it. so many days i come to work and am completely overwhelmed. this is so very different from the stress i felt in school. i was only responsible to myself back then. if i messed up a paper, so what. it would come back to me and me alone.
i am so overwhelmed, guys. some people say 'you can handle it,' but honestly the majority of people living here in the city are telling me to get out as soon as i can. i tend to agree. but this non-profit provides some really good opportunities for kids who have nothing else. theý're getting into college. they're learning things that are truly applicable and helpful, skills that can actually pull them out of poverty. i see that happen too.
but then i see how the non-profit is dying, how overworked my one co-worker is. i think i'm supposed to be the 'positive' one, but that's super hard for me at the moment. man oh man.
so now you know. and that's the last i will say about it for a good while. i think i just needed to expound. *exhales*
*shakes hand*
when i made the decision to come here, i was told by the guy who apparently took all of the above info with him that the non-profit was in a really good position, and i would be making a livable sum of money each month. since i got off of the plane two months ago, i have learned more each day of how dire the situation really is (exemplified by the fact that my salary is now half of what i anticipated - hardly livable - not exaggerating).
so i'm the 'development coordinator' which basically means i'm in charge of everything having to do with funding, raising money, expenses, etc. my god. i have been thrown into a dying non-profit and am expected (though they claim otherwise) to save it. so many days i come to work and am completely overwhelmed. this is so very different from the stress i felt in school. i was only responsible to myself back then. if i messed up a paper, so what. it would come back to me and me alone.
i am so overwhelmed, guys. some people say 'you can handle it,' but honestly the majority of people living here in the city are telling me to get out as soon as i can. i tend to agree. but this non-profit provides some really good opportunities for kids who have nothing else. theý're getting into college. they're learning things that are truly applicable and helpful, skills that can actually pull them out of poverty. i see that happen too.
but then i see how the non-profit is dying, how overworked my one co-worker is. i think i'm supposed to be the 'positive' one, but that's super hard for me at the moment. man oh man.
so now you know. and that's the last i will say about it for a good while. i think i just needed to expound. *exhales*
*shakes hand*
posted by jasembera at
2:10 PM
2 Comments:
ya thats a lot to digest. just do what you can. noone expects a miracle worker, well not since helen keller's teacher cornered that market. you are probably doing a better job than anyone expected over there since you dont have experience or training on what it is you were thrown into. so do what you can the best you can and and and ill say a prayer. ha.
love u/take care.
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Anonymous, at 2:38 PM
yeah, working for nonprofits is harrowing. especially when they want YOU to get money for them. and they're all not organized. hang in there, dear!
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Attica, at 3:24 PM
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